Welcome to the 3rd issue of Notes from the Middle. I won’t be editing this, I’m just free-writing, so please excuse any typos, grammar mistakes or terrible sentence structure.

My Head:

Remember how last month I felt this dull rage just vibrating underneath everything? I don’t feel that rage so much anymore. What’s replaced it is a deep sadness that comes up every few nights just as I’m getting ready to close my eyes.

It’s the children in Lebanon, Gaza, Sudan, Congo, Iran. Their small bodies. The fact that I know their faces from my phone screen and then I walk down the hall and tuck my own children in – and I don’t know what to do with that except hold it. Some nights I can’t find the line between feeling everything and functioning. I’ve decided that’s just what it costs to stay awake right now, when so many people have chosen to look away.

I’m constantly thinking there is more I should and could be doing, and if I leave myself to think about the children, I find I have nothing left to give my own.

I traveled a lot in March – Cartagena & Cancun – and I did it while working part-time.

I’m ready to dive straight into Q2 and make it even more profitable than Q1 (big shoes to fill but we are on track).

Even though I worked part-time while I was traveling in March, I felt like I was disconnected from the work. Sometimes that is VERY welcome, but in this case I felt really eager to come back to my physical desk and get heads down again, so let’s get into it.

My business:

I have no idea how we got to Q2 because I just finished celebrating my husband’s 40th in January… but apparently here we are.

Q1 was big. Big enough that I came into Q2 feeling motivated and, if I’m being honest, a litttttle tired. It was our third month running ads and we ran some experiments that had mixed results. Let me walk you through it.